There are some days that feel so wrong...or empty!I believe that everyone has that kind of a day but mine seems to be like that a lot more than it should.I keep trying to find what I do wrong or find the reason that I feel like that but nothing,I end up sitting at an awkward position daydreaming...I see others around me that are so full in their everyday lifes and I wish I could be like that!In the other hand I was like that last year and I was wishing for an empty evening once in a while..The problem here is that most of my evenings are empty!I don't really know what I want!And that is what drives me crazy!I wanted to start lessons for my driver's licence(my father went nuts so that one is out of the picture for at least another year)Then a friend of mine told me to attend orriental dance lessons with her(but that's not my style and her mom goes with her(I don't have problem with her mother but I beleive that being 19 you need to do something that doesn't evolve family-independent) )Another friend said I could go to a pilates course with her but lets be honest(I've done it in the past I know some excercises it will be boring plus is one day every week)Maybe I could go to the pool but it is not close and I don't have a car(I used to go when I was 12 but I was stupid enough to quit at the age of 15) and it's open(winter time back then I used to like it)I am bored-I shouldn't-but I am!And I need to change that soon or else...I don't know something bad though...
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