well well well SATURDAY(night) PEOPLE...

And again...I'm in....the house!WHY GOD?!Why are you doing this to me?!I want to go out!I NEED to go out!You know make up(not that I'm using much of it but anyway),nice clothes,high heels,uuhhh I want to go out!So far nothing!Everyone has something to do or somewhere to go...Man I hate when this happens!OK I'm sure I can find something to keep myself buzy...Treadmill and music...that's....different!I still looking for my cousin(the one who can fix my bike)and probably I'm not going to the pool!Instead I'm going to the gym near my house...now I'm watching ''FRIENDS'' and probably will keep doing that till tomorrow morning...saturday night ALWAYS stay out of the house...

song of the day

Tuesday...Christmas spirit everywhere...

Today is Saint's Nicholas name day(it's like 1\8 of greece is celebrating today)I live close to the port and every year since I can remember myself,this particular day I can hear the ships honking...it's a very nice sound!So I went out to buy some presents for my dad and my friends and It felt like christmas...I  didn't expect to feel sad about it,but as I grow up christmas seems to last less than they used to last!It's like time doesn't ecxist when you are small!The christmas tree,the lights,candies and the presents are the only thinks that matter!Now christmas are just a celebration that will give you a two-day break from work or from university and that's it!You don't take enough time to sit by the christmas tree or bake something that will remind your childhood...That troubles me!I don't want to be like those(dead inside as I call them) people that do nothing during christmas because they don't care or they are just buzy...So thumps up!I loved my cold walk and they loved my presents!And I will keep my christmas spirit alive... ^_^

Friday night

Finally Friday....yeah not so much...because I'm not going anywhere(and this time I had to go out to buy a birthday present and a name day present but I'm so lazy that I didn't go,the worst part is that I will have to get up at 9am tomorrow so that I can buy them in time...Saturday mornings do not exist because we sleep) that's an unwritten rule by the way!I deside to go to the pool!!!!(I think...)I can't wait but I know that this feeling will stop as soon as I take off my clothes,wear my swimsuit and go for the first cold dip...but whatever I hope to stick with it for years because it's good for my health and my body and I need both in order to be happy!I plan to enroll at January(perfectly cold) plus I found my transport...bike(if it can be fixed)also I hope to wake up early in the morning(8 o'clock) and go there do my workout and be right back for my lessons at 10!If I keep it up till september I'm going to be perfectly happy...assuming that the location of my lesson will be the same!

Why when you try sometimes you make it worse?!

Why?!WHy?WHY?!When you try(not to fix something or someone because I know that sometimes you can't specially if it's a person damn even if it's a broken vase)to understand and help someone that someone refuses your help!?WHY?!You are the only one that can love without limits and expectations(not visible even if you but a fluorescent label from the other person's angle),you speak the truth(and that hurts),you are always there...but it's not enough...you even try different ways but still nothing?!But you are still there watching as that person is chasing others that means nothing to them,it is like a bitter burned chocolate biscuit you want to eat it because it seems mouth watering and crispy but when you take a bite it's not even close to what you were expecting...and you keep trying to make that person see that you want to help but the only think that you achive is become tyring...who is going to help me?!help that someone?!I don't know,I'm confused and tired it's late and I can't sleep,there is no improvement with my painting!I want things to become better and soon!Or as soon as possible..

something I can't explain...

There are some days that feel so wrong...or empty!I believe that everyone has that kind of a day but mine seems to be like that a lot more than it should.I keep trying to find what I do wrong or find the reason that I feel like that but nothing,I end up sitting at an awkward position daydreaming...I see others around me that are so full in their everyday lifes and I wish I could be like that!In the other hand I was like that last year and I was wishing for an empty evening once in a while..The problem here is that most of my evenings are empty!I don't really know what I want!And that is what drives me crazy!I wanted to start lessons for my driver's licence(my father went nuts so that one is out of the picture for at least another year)Then a friend of mine told me to attend orriental dance lessons with her(but that's not my style and her mom goes with her(I don't have problem with her mother but I beleive that being 19 you need to do something that doesn't evolve family-independent) )Another friend said I could go to a pilates course with her but lets be honest(I've done it in the past I know some excercises it will be boring plus is one day every week)Maybe I could go to the pool but it is not close and I don't have a car(I used to go when I was 12 but I was stupid enough to quit at the age of 15) and it's open(winter time back then I used to like it)I am bored-I shouldn't-but I am!And I need to change that soon or else...I don't know something bad though...

It was....fine..I think...

Hi!!!During the days that I didn't post something...I watched a movie(guess what it was...thriller and it has cost me 3 nights of sleep so far) I straightened my hair(I didn't like them at all!Everyone else found the difference good and they told me that they liked me best with straight hair(bubbles)* yeah right like I'm going to be like those bimbos that have obsession with straight hair and make up... I mentioned that I was going out on friday(which was nice,kind of boring because I didn't know anyone except my friend and the music wasn't the kind I listen but I danced and returned home at 06:00 in the morning...I haven't attend my classes for two days in a row(I feel bad about it but I can't sleep!I WANT MY SLEEP BACK stupid movie!Uuummm what else?!Ohh I'm currently working to my mother's ceramic workshop which is sooo tiring..but I have a huge need for spare pocket money so...I still have to go to that police station and take my wallet back(In case you think I haven't done anything I'm going to tell you that there is some improvement!I googled(again)the address but this time I've find out that the police station is 81 minutes away AND I  called the station in order to ask if they still have my wallet and the hours that are open BUT the line wasn't working(it's greece we're talking about)God I'm lazy...

*bubbles:I use that word instead of bullshit(whatever I KNOW)